sitting enough

February 20th, 2020

 

Nowadays I wake up even earlier than usual to check the news. It’s an obsession but it feels like a duty; I’m a sentry in a war zone, scanning the horizon for smoke and fire. Threats multiply every day. Environmentally, socially, politically, and technologically, the world seems locked in a death spiral. I feel overwhelmed and, to be honest, complicit. What have I done to alter the tides of human ignorance, greed, and hatred? Clearly not enough.

Then I go sit.

As Buddhist practitioners, indeed, as citizens of planet Earth, we might wonder if there’s a better use of our time than sitting still in silence. Shouldn’t we be raising our voices, righting wrongs and fighting the good fight? There are people to help and causes to champion, protests to organize and injustices to correct. Turning our backs and facing a wall sure looks like escaping reality and avoiding responsibility.

Formal practice—in a meditation hall, surrounded by a sangha—has long been criticized as socially disengaged, morally indifferent, and even selfish. Besides, as far as meditation goes, there are apps for that.

Whenever we’re confused about the point of our practice, it’s time to question our judgments and beliefs. We are taught to take refuge in buddha, dharma, and sangha, and many of us make vows to do so. But is there true refuge in our refuge, or are we just reciting words? Is practice our living reality or just an intellectual pastime? We must continually answer these questions for ourselves, or the buddhadharma dies.

Do I really believe in buddha, the awakened mind that frees sentient beings from the suffering of samsara?

Do I really believe in dharma, the path of practice that leads us out of egocentric delusion and into lives of clarity and compassion?

Do I really believe in sangha, the harmony of oneness that underlies all things?

As taught in the Eightfold Path, the right view changes everything, because when we know that our actions and beliefs have infinite consequences, we live differently. Practice is the place where we can begin to see the truth of this, and each glimpse subtly transforms our lives and the world.

Changing the world is not likely to be our first intention in coming to a practice center. We might want to change a niggling little aspect of ourselves—be more productive, less distracted, less angry, or less anxious, for example. But a funny thing happens while we sit silently struggling with our runaway thoughts and emotions. What keeps us in place is the person sitting next to us. We don’t move because they don’t move. If we weren’t sitting in a group, we would probably walk out. The same is true for everyone else. We sustain each other. We uphold each other. We are not separate, but rather sitting, breathing, and living as one.

And it doesn’t stop there. When we chant, we broadcast the benefits of our practice throughout the universe. We know it works, because our actions and beliefs have infinite consequences. Little by little, our view widens beyond our own desires. What starts as a self-help project thus becomes the work of a bodhisattva: taking on the suffering of the world. That means we respond to the needs that appear in front of us. It doesn’t matter if our actions seem big or small, enough or not enough. We shouldn’t be fooled by what we think.

Practice is a marvelous vehicle—it goes everywhere and includes everything. It donates clothing and food, signs petitions, and joins marches. It visits the lonely and sits with the dying; it listens, smiles, laughs, and cries. It gives money and time. It votes. Far from disengaged, a living practice is intimately engaged because it is you.

The never-ending greed and hate in our world make the need for practice clear. Without you there is no sangha, no dharma, and no buddha. As the late Zen teacher Kobun Chino Roshi said, our personal responsibility is so great that “naturally we sit down for a while.”

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Compassionate Heart: A Zen Retreat near Toledo June 25-28

Essay originally printed as “True Practice is Never Disengaged,” in Buddhadharma: The Practitioner’s Quarterly, Spring 2020. Photo by Tom van Hoogstraten.

8 Comments »

  1. Nice words for winter and confusion and depression. Let’s sit down for a while.

    Comment by Bill — February 20, 2020 @ 1:22 pm

  2. Where I live the (Christian) convents are closing. Nuns and monks are getting older and young people no longer apply. At times I wonder what that does or changes in our society, to no longer have people in your midst who are focused on something that transcends matter and daily strife.
    My belief in God has shifted in the last year. I think God is all of us together, when I meet a person we are equal. God is in both of us. Arguing with the other is arguing with a part of your soul. I think that what is going on in the world today, is about people losing touch with that idea.
    I’m sure it can only be a matter of time when that will shift, it is no longer sustainable.
    So I hope,and I meditate. We have to create mindspace for the world, the belief that miracles can happen.

    Comment by Simone — February 20, 2020 @ 2:21 pm

  3. Thank you.

    Comment by Gretchen Staebler — February 21, 2020 @ 8:25 am

  4. My Dear Maezen,
    I always welcome and am lifted by your words, though I don’t often comment. But these words today are especially meaningful and fill me with their truth, beauty and comfort.
    Thank you for always teaching us, guiding us.
    I radiate back to you the light you touch us with.

    Comment by Elizabeth — February 22, 2020 @ 9:12 am

  5. Dear Elizabeth,
    So glad we are still connected. Thank you.

    Comment by Karen Maezen Miller — February 22, 2020 @ 3:15 pm

  6. I like listening to your dharma talks, but I’ve run out them. Will you be adding more. I have gotten to like hearing Martin Goodson’s talks as well. They are similar to yours, without laughter! Larry

    Comment by Larry Misiak — February 28, 2020 @ 2:25 pm

  7. Hi Larry,
    Thanks for listening! My more recent talks are available here: https://soundcloud.com/karen-maezen-miller

    Comment by Karen Maezen Miller — February 28, 2020 @ 3:17 pm

  8. Sure enough, there they all are. I always experience a let down when I reach the end of something, not wanting it to be over, worried I won’t find anything as satisfying again. Searching, searching, searching. Like reaching last episode of a good(to me) Amazon Prime series. Having to begin another investigation is unrewarding. Finding is what it’s all about, maybe, maybe not. Nice to see you have a news fetish, too. The impeachment hearings seem like ancient history. The guy in the White House seems just as absurd, more than ever. And now his side arm is in charge of something. Maybe I should write a blog. I guess I need to sit more!

    Comment by Larry Misiak — February 29, 2020 @ 7:59 am

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